Unspoken Words

God

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 04:07:23 GMT

My boyfriend is an ass hole.

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 03:15:22 GMT

Why do all the good people die?
Why do all the good people get treated like shit?
Why must you feel like shit for the world being shit?
Why do all the great people get torn apart?
why do I feel torn apart?
Am I a good person?

I didn't think so.

Over and out.

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 01:54:05 GMT

"Steady, As She Goes"

Find yourself a girl, and settle down
Live a simple life in a quiet town

Steady as she goes (steady as she goes)
Steady as she goes (steady as she goes)
So steady as she goes

Your friends have shown a kink in the single life
You've had too much to think, now you need a wife

Steady as she goes (steady as she goes)
So steady as she goes (steady as she goes)
Well here we go again, you've found yourself a friend, that knows you well
But no matter what you do, you'll always feel as though you tripped and fell

So steady as she goes

When you have completed what you thought you had to do
And your blood's depleted to the point of stable glue

Then you'll get along
Then you'll get along

Steady as she goes (steady as she goes)
So steady as she goes (steady as she goes)
Well here we go again, you've found yourself a friend that knows you well
But no matter what you do, it always feels as though you tripped and fell
So steady as she goes
Steady as she goes

Settle for a girl and buckle down
Send it to the crowd that's gathered round
Settle for a girl and buckle down
Send it to the crowd that's gathered round

So steady as she goes (steady as she goes)
Steady as she goes (steady as she goes)
Steady as she goes (steady as she goes)
Steady as she goes (steady as she goes)
So steady as she goes (steady as she goes)

Steady as she goes
Are you steady now?
Steady as she goes
Are you steady now?
Steady as she goes
Are you steady now?
Steady as she goes
Are you steady now?
Steady as she goes

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 01:15:00 GMT

Things Dan has said to me that I never want to forget.

You will never be annoying? Why would you think a thing like that?
Well you are wanted. And missed too
I miss you.
Stop it.
Happy things
Well stop it. Think of me.
Stop that.
I said stop
Don't do shit. I swear if you do anything I'll never forgive you. That's final. I told you to stop now stop.
Ok so like Tennessee
Body heat is good
Lol nope your closet ( that's a good one lol)
You. Finding a job, life. You know normal stuff
Yes you're a normal thought for me.
You will live life still. Yes it will hurt and kill you but you can't blame yourself for others decions. You understand me there too?
Life might be shitty but at least you have me to talk to.
So i've been told. Some times I don't believe it but yea (reffering to him being a good person)
Shift your weight huh. So then you can do you're favorite fighting style, right?
I don't hate you.
Well you keep pushing me away. And for what?
Well idk what's going on any more.
Yeah, you made me happy.
Don't worry about it. I should apoligize to you for being moddy this past week. Its that time of the month, lol
Yea certain people have been annoying the shit out of me. Kinda still are. I still think it might be a long time of the month. idk
Yea I'm just glad I don't bleed. I just get moody. And I love you too
I would be concerned too. And yea sorry about the whole Sarah thing. Hope things get better for the both of us.
Yea cause everything is my fault
Yea but if that were to happen it wouldn't be normal playing.
I'll play with your pussy any day.
I feel like I shouls be treated like shit.
Both sounds sweet because the teas would be tears of happiness
Oh I wish I could cuddle with you all night dear.
Please or you make me sad. Even though I know what you want, I still want to hear you say it.
Well considering we have no power. I'm putting puzzles together. I'm totally bored. Things of you a lot. And I was just thinking about asking if you wanted to box? But how are you?
Yea I wish I could play with you. Damn do I wish that.
Damn I can imagine you showering and it sucks cause I'm not able to six my problem now.
I guess. Fine. You win.
Never fight in the shower huh! Very interesting, its quite nice.
Well maybe one day I will show you this style of fighting
Playing pool. So wish i was in Racine.
Yea I rather you be in my bed at my parents house all night just cuddling. So every ome know you have a thing for me. Its cute (Awe isn't he cute)
Just got in a cake fight. I have frosting all over.
Yea I know I wish the same fucking thing. That would be so sexual. Plus we could take a shower after it all.
Good night my sweet slave, lol. Muah sleep well muah.
Fuck you. That's not fair. Teasing me like that. *makes sad face*
And nor do I. Can I ask what would happen if I was to come back before you left? And maybe got together!
Idk happy but yet sad that I have this power, as you might say, over you.
But why hide it for so long?
Looks can be destracting from real feelings
Ok not really sure about the whole respect thing.

/End

FLASHBACK!

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 20:26:30 GMT

"It Wasn't Me"
(feat. Ricardo Ducent)

(Yo', man) Yo'
(Open up, man) What do you want, man?
(My girl just caught me) You let her catch you?
(I don't know how I let this happen) With who?
(The girl next door, you know) Man
(I don't know what to do) Say it wasn't you
(Alright)

Honey came in and she caught me red-handed
Creeping with the girl next door
Picture this, we were both butt naked
Bangin' on the bathroom floor

How could I forget that I had
Given her an extra key
All this time she was standing there
She never took her eyes off me

How you can grant the woman access to your villa
Trespasser and a witness while you cling to your pillow
You better watch your back before she turn into a killer
Best for you and the situation not to call the beaner
To be a true player you have to know how to play
If she say you're not, convince her say a day
Never admit to a word when she say makes a claim
And you tell her baby no way

But she caught me on the counter (It wasn't me)
Saw me bangin' on the sofa (It wasn't me)
I even had her in the shower (It wasn't me)
She even caught me on camera (It wasn't me)

She saw the marks on my shoulder (It wasn't me)
Heard the words that I told her (It wasn't me)
Heard the scream get louder (It wasn't me)
She stayed until it was over

Honey came in and she caught me red-handed
Creeping with the girl next door
Picture this, we were both butt naked
Bangin' on the bathroom floor

I had tried to keep her
From what she was about to see
Why should she believe me
When I told her it wasn't me

Make sure she knows it's not you and lead her on da right prefix
Whenever you should see her make da giggolo flex
As funny as it be by you, it not that complex
Seein is believin so you better change your specs
You know she not gonna be worrying bout things from the past
Hardly recollecting and then she'll go to noontime mass
Wait for your answer: go over there
But if she pack a gun you know you better run fast

But she caught me on the counter (It wasn't me)
Saw me bangin' on the sofa (It wasn't me)
I even had her in the shower (It wasn't me)
She even caught me on camera (It wasn't me)

She saw the marks on my shoulder (It wasn't me)
Heard the words that I told her (It wasn't me)
Heard the scream get louder (It wasn't me)
She stayed until it was over

Honey came in and she caught me red-handed
Creeping with the girl next door
Picture this, we were both butt naked
Bangin' on the bathroom floor

How could I forget that I had
Given her an extra key
All this time she was standing there
She never took her eyes off me

Gonna tell her that I'm sorry
For the pain that I've caused
I've been listenin to your reasonin
It makes no sense at all
We should tell her that I'm sorry
For the pain that I've caused
You may think that you're a player
But you're completely lost
That's why I sing

Honey came in and she caught me red-handed
Creeping with the girl next door
Picture this, we were both butt naked
Bangin' on the bathroom floor

How could I forget that I had
Given her an extra key
All this time she was standing there
She never took her eyes off me

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 01:33:54 GMT

and I miss him so much it makes me want to cry
Why did she have to do those things to me..
What did I ever do to hurt her?
Fuck that bitch.

I love him ♥

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 11:06:46 GMT

Indulge rotten Rome Beauties continually.

[19 Jun 2006|07:06pm]

onethinwallaway

I had the best school year of my life because I made it so. I tried contributing these feelings to others, but this is a guilty, communal lie. I owe it only to my will to live a fulfilling and happy life. This signifies no end, no beginning, but a continuation until death. It's just a shame that all of those precious minutes with them were waste waste wasted. I gave and offered so many chances for them to mean something to me. The only thing, I have learned and have known, that matters in the end is what remains. And I have kilobytes upon kilobytes upon pages upon pages to prove this so. Memories are lovely, but inspire no action, create nothing tangible. And memories of indifference have only taught me to rid of them, replace them. Oh so much more, I was never good at summing things up, but some feeling and action of finality felt needed because it was devoid in every other area and mind as usual. The year offered me opportunity, the time offered me solace, and I believe I seized both effectively.

"Why do you love her?"
"I can't say...The feelings and all that encompass would become demeaned, and lose its personal effects if I spoke of it so easily, so casually, so freely."
"I understand, but...I promise I'm different. I am attempting (hah) genuine care over casual curiousity or interest. I'll appreciate what you have to say, and understand that you are barely touching the surface with mere words because I have encountered this dilemma myself in the past, and know the topic all too well."
"Yes, words are inefficient for this question... I suppose, without going into detail, that she merely makes me happy. This is the conclusion I come to when I strip away the details for myself in analyzation and appreciation as well. It looks like your tearing up a bit there."
"Yeah, sorry...I just...I just know what I need, is all."

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 10:51:43 GMT

That fucking bitch..
She fucked me over so dirty..
She doesn't know I know.
but she will.
she will..

This ~~was~~ is BULLSHIT!

...

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 16:05:09 GMT

I'm friends with Sarah again...
I don't want to be but its keeping her sane...
at least one of us should be.
I miss Dan more as each day pass.
At least George gets out soon.

GAH!

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 03:25:39 GMT

"Moving Forward"

At least I'm moving forward.
At least I'm moving forward.
At least I'm moving forward.
At least I'm moving forward...

I stand before, a road that will lead,
Into the unknown. At least unknown to me.
I want to go, but I'm paralysed with fear.
Fear of a choise, where the outcome isn't clear.

Nooo, but still I gooo.

And I take, the first step of a million more.
And I'll make mistakes I've never made before.
But at least I'm moving forward, at least I'm moving forward.
At least I'm moving forward...

I wonder if, the journey will be,
Shorter as I hope, or much longer than it seems.
But either way, I've made up my mind.
I'm through feeling scared, I'm leaving that behind.

Sooo, Now it's time to gooo.

And I take, the first step of a million more.
And I'll make mistakes I've never made before.
But at least I'm moving forward, at least I'm moving forward.
At least I'm moving forward...

And in while I''l be singing,

Na, nana nana

And I take, the first step of a million more.
And I'll make mistakes I've never made before.
But at least I'm moving forward, at least I'm moving forward.
At least I'm moving forward, at least I'm moving forward.

And I take, the first step of a million more!
And I'll make mistakes I've never made before!
But at least I'm moving forward, at least I'm moving forward.
At least I'm moving forward, at least I'm moving forward!

Mo-ving, for-ward.
Mo-ving, for-ward.
Mo-ving, for-ward.
Mo-ving, for-ward...

Na, nana nana

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 19:37:26 GMT

"I'm sorry you miss him so much"
ha what a dumb bitch.. Its a lot more then just a miss..
or a wanting to be around..
or a new love..
but empty..
and very much alone.

I'm broken.

Again.

...

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 16:47:21 GMT

To My Love,

     I'm sorry I upset you.. and you don't know what to do.. I'm sorry for pushing you away.. I'm just really alone.. and a part of me wants to keep it that way. I used to always oush every one away.. now it seems I only do it to those I care about the most, but then again.. I do keep a lot of people out of my life.. I used to be worse... and I'm glad you didn't see me like that.

     You do not have to worry about me.. For I am just a mere child who knows nothing but how to survive. With or without other people. Some times... I wish I didn't have any friends.. or people calling me. I wish almost every day that 80% of the guys I talk to never call again.. and the ones I do want to call never do. And don't even get me started on females..

     Most of the people I talk to are just as bad as my parents.. they don't know me and they aren't even trying.. I just look good so they keep talking to me. I'm not treated as a person with feelings by them so much as I am treated like a piece of meat or a nice accessory to a room or party. You don't treat me like that. I think its kinda stupid of me to push away the people that do care.. and keep around the ones that don't.. but that's kinda what I do.. Its kinda what I've always done. I think part of it is.. most of the people ho really care about me or love me like my parents.. Don't know how to show it.. so my mind has kinda warped things. Another part of it is.. If there are feelings exchanged.. and I let my guard down.. I often push away and a second act of defense and I often do it without even realizing what I'm doing.

    I do love you.. I really don't want to push you away or make you leave like I did with Sarah. I mean.. I cry looking at your pictures knowing.. that I could never truely call you mine.. and you just walked away.. I understand why you left.. I really do... I just feel as if you kinda just.. turned your back away.. and looked out for yourself.. which i can also understand. because that's kinda what I'm doing when I put you away. I just wish I could be in your arms.. or be able to call myself yours.. I know you probably.. well never mind.. that would have been anoth push away comment.

     Just do your best with my heart.. because I've handed it to you on a silver platter.. and every now and then you may feel a tug on the other side. That's just me trying to take it back.. I don't want it back.. but every now and then I am trying to see how well you're really willing to protect it. I test people a lot.. and my theripist was just telling me that what if after a while they get sick of my tests.. well I've come to realize that one of my constant tests is pushing away. She said.. well what happens when people get tired of being tested.. I just recently found out when Sarah said she didn't want to be my friend..

     Once again.. I am sorry my love.I await the call that will never come.

                                                                       Always and Forever,
                                                     Your Love Slave

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 03:36:46 GMT

Dear Mom & Dad,

     I just have a few questions to ask you.. Why do you refuse to accept who I am? Why do you live in denial? Is the real me that bad of a child? or am I just a little too real for you? How can you not tell I've been crying every day? Why don't you at least pretend to listen??

     Why after all this time do you blame my friends for my mistakes? Why do I have to be perfect? Why can't I have problems? Why can't I cry without being questioned? Who are you guys really?

     After all the years I've been silently screaming.. you never even knew any thing was wrong.. so how can you say I blow things out of proportion?.. Why do you always have to pretend I'm something I'm not? Why can't you see who I am? Do I honestly hide it that well? I love you guys... but you don't even know me.

     When I leave.. you will not know why and will probably be lost and confused and worried. I want you to know now that I will be fine. I will not be wondering the streets.. I will have a place to sleep and will think of you every day. I would call you after I leave.. but I don't trust you. I love you guys..

     Maybe one day you will see who and what I really am.. I am not a whore.. I'm not a drug addict.. I just make mistakes.. I wish you knew.. I wish you knew every thing.. but you won't and if you did you wouldn't understand why or how.. or what drove me to do some of the things I did.. hell some times I wonder the same thing.. Maybe....Maybe one day, but for now this is good bye.

                                                                    Sincerly,
                                                 The Stranger in your house.
                                                         AKA Your Daughter.

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 02:14:04 GMT

Love Compatibility of Virgo with Taurus

Virgo and Taurus make a great pair - the perfect blend of analytical style and common sense. Since you're both Earth signs, you encourage each other to be productive. You'd be an unstoppable force working together in the business world as well as in your personal life. In your relationship, Taurus will understand your practicality with money, and find ways to get maximum enjoyment out of every dollar you spend together. You are a no-nonsense, down-to-earth couple who can survive the tough times and stay together for many happy years, if not forever.

some times I forget Sarah is a Virgo too..
but she's not suppose to be.. I was no matter what.
Why can't things just click some times?

Like I've said before..

If it were a perfect world..
Hearts would come first
Clubs would come second
Diamonds would be third..
and
Aces would ALWAYS finish last.

Kinda

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 02:11:57 GMT

Me=Depressed

Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22)

Others might not see how serious you are now, for you can keep them off guard with your easy-going attitude. Still, beneath the smile you are just as cautious and critical as ever, working to tie up each and every loose end. But there's really no need to struggle now, for no matter how hard you try, you cannot control everything. Choose your battles and let some of the details go.

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 01:47:13 GMT

♥ I love him ♥

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 22:45:41 GMT

Dear Mom & Dad...

    I have fallen in love.. He's older then me but I'm about to be 17.. 3 years isn't that big of a gap.. Please don't try and stop me. I think I could be with him the rest of my life.. No he's not gay.. and we don't really box.. We make each other happy. There are so many things I wish I could say to you.. but none of it is worth saying.. We are leaving in August and I want to spend at least one day with him if he does not come back before then.. if we go there and he still wants to leave then I ask this of you..

    Could we please take him home with us.. I promise he won't pee in the car.. and he's very well behaved. He's really sweet and he can sleep in my room. I'll take good care of him I promise.. can I please please please take him home?! I hope you understand I love him.. Please don't taunt and tease him. He's a good boy I promise ma.. A very good influence on me.

    There is just one thing.. When he's not around I am nothing.. When he's not around I'm alone. Make the lonliness go away.. Bring him back with me. I love him.. I love him..

                                                            Save me???
                                                                   Your Loving Daughter
                                                                         Elizabeth L Michalski Reis

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 01:56:39 GMT

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 17:21:22 GMT

I'm thinking about cutting my hair.. I'm going to cut it dye it black then get hott pink and purple high lights... let me know which one you like best.

1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8.9.10.11.12.13.14.15.16.17.18.19.

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 18:21:31 GMT

Artists > Silverstein > Call It Karma
Submitted by lost_in_darkness on August 21, 2005

blame it on the weather, but i'm a mess
and this february darkness. has me hating everyone
and i know i give you comfort, but this trouble makes me sick
and the longer i lay here, i know it's harder to get up
without you

[chorus]
lose another day here
lose another year here
i'm with you

find me something out there, that's making sense
and it's just another trend carefully hidden in your dress
and the cycles neverending, and the fashions overdone
and the further that i run away, the further i'll come back
to shelter...

[chorus]

you are the fire, on my apartment floor
sixteen stories, i'd rather burn then fall
it isn't fate, that took us all by storm
it's just the turn of a card

[chorus]

you are the fire, on my apartment floor
sixteen stories, i'd rather burn then fall
it isn't fate, that took us all by storm
it's just the turn of a card

goodbye old friend
goodbye goodnight
i'll move on
you'll call it fate, i'll call it karma
we had our time, it was fun
while it lasted

i'll look back, with honor
and no regrets
i won't be mad, won't feel bad
these memories will never leave me
don't be sad
cause life goes on, life goes on
it's getting too late
tomorrow is here

Atreyu

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 17:36:26 GMT

This Flesh Is A Tomb Lyrics

I feel eyelashes on my cheek
And they lacerate my flesh
A pain so good
Put your hand in mine
Never let go
Never wake up
'cause I'm done with promises
I'm taking blood oaths
Feels like you could kiss my imperfections
My imperfections away
And I would stand
Stand by your side
Until the sun turns the sky
All the colors I see in your eyes

(Chorus)
I'll never need to see the sun again
There's enough light in your eyes
To light up our little world
So take me
Take me away
Kill me slowly
I'll never be the same

I swear to you
On everything I am
And I dedicate to you all that I have
And I promise you
That I will stand right by your side
Forever and always
Until the day I die

The bite marks on my neck
Never felt so good
I'm losing control
And it's all that I can do not to blackout
And fall into ~~lust~~ with you
Your kisses infect me
The dark gift is loving you

(Chorus)

And I feel immortal
And I want to make you feel the same
So stand by me as we immolate
We can burn in each other's arms

Oh dear...

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 15:01:04 GMT

I look back on all that has happened in the past month.
I realize how whole I felt..
I some time wish I stopped talking to Sarah sooner.. Maybe I would have met Dan sooner..
She thanks me for not talking to her.. that shit hurts..
I don't want to think about life any more..
there is no real reason to live.. and no reason to die.
I have nothing left..
I've lost my best friend.. I've lost the other half of my whole..
I'm alone..
My dad tried to cheer me up by telling me how he used to play softball with this kid on friday nights.. and he was playing with him one friday and he goes to school on Monday and his teacher tells them that his friend died.. and my dad was like no.. I was just with him..
Apparently there was a house fire..
That just made it worse..
What if one of the few people I have left died..
I don't know what I would do..
Julia is now moving in November..
God I'm just going to be alone..
I'm not leaving my house any more..
I'm not letting any one in any more..

Consider me dead

sigh

Wed, 31 May 2006 01:22:24 GMT

Well that was depressing.
I spent the whole weekend at Dan's
then I had to sleep alone...

This is the only song I can think of right now.

"BitterSweet"
By Apocalyptica

I'm giving up the ghost of love
in the shadows cast on devotion

She is the one that I adore
creed of my silent suffocation

Break this bittersweet spell on me
lost in the arms of destiny

Bittersweet
I won't give up
I'm possessed by her

Break this bittersweet spell on me..
lost in the arms of destiny
I'm wearing a cross
she's turning to my good

Break this bittersweet spell on me
lost in the arms of destiny
Break this bittersweet spell on me..
lost in the arms of destiny

Bittersweet
I want you
I'm only wanting you
And I need you
I'm only needing you

Break this bittersweet spell on me
lost in the arms of destiny
Break this bittersweet spell on me
lost in the arms of destiny

Well this ruinned the mood.

Sun, 21 May 2006 17:56:13 GMT

So I tried to text dan..
I just want to talk to him
I just want him to hold me.
I must have done something to fuck this up.
He has other people; I know what its like to want to leave it all behind...
I just want to run.
My PO is expecting me to run.. and I didn't want to... but now it seems to look better and better.
I have places nation wide waiting for me.
I have Alex in Cali.
I have Steven in Memphis.
I have Elona in Memphis.
I have Adam in Apex.
I have Joel in Illinios.
So many places.. I dream to be...
Then there is Kristi who is moving this summer too!
I lose two people I love.
I hate being 16 I want to run but cannot...
I just want to go.... I just want to get out...

Then I went to his profile.. and he had this song...

"Omerta"
By Katatonia

Come by you have come far
All I had I lost in the flood
Come sit with me at the bar
Tell me of progress strengthen my blood
No one here knows my name
I have traded my memories for things
But I remember you clearly
Do you remember that I used to sing

Why have you waited so long

Come by you have come far
Long since I saw you so how have you been
Come sit with me at the bar
How long since they told you that they had found him
No one here knows my name
I gave up my worries for one good thing
But I remember you clearly
Do you remember that I used to sing

Was it because I never told you
I was going away
That you waited so long
Was it because your fucking dreams
Meant nothing to me
That you waited so long

It runs from the top of my fingers
Into my hands
What is it I have been drinking
I do not understand
I thought I'd lost you my brother
I'm so glad you came
My regards to the ones that I love I miss them
Tell them I love them I miss them

Please KILL ME!

Fri, 19 May 2006 02:09:47 GMT

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